sitting on the floor

in a sun spot

the school yard squealing in the near distance 

recess in Italian sounds exactly the same as it does at home

one toll for ten thirty tolls

'sun stars' float around the warmth of my cheek 

and my children 
chasing them in darkened rooms strobed with light

fills my mind's eye

but it's dust . . .just dust . . . that fills the air

and the bunnies that come with the fallen sun stars 
and the crumbs 

and all manner of what comes in and falls down 

rests on the floor

until again I'm inspired to sweep

but today I sit 

pressed against the wall

in the sun

on the floor

where I am

away

far away

and apart

set apart

reading

listening

thinking

and remembering

to pray

quietly

intimately

with my heart and my tears

no words

and even in this small and remote place where pretty much all I do 

is under my full control

to go and to do

or to stay and just be

things beckon

they never seem to loose their voice

wipe up

wash down

clean up

go out

meet up

trying to just be quiet becomes a huge feat

something to explain to others

when they ask what did you do

why are you not going away

traveling

exploring

enjoying

oh but I am

to sit

on the floor

my heart holding fresh memories

and words spoken in silence

feeling the sun 

warm on my cheek

and knowing that even in this cool of February in the wane of morning

spring is just below the surface

surging and waiting to wield its green

what is there to do

in our lives

wherever we are

in a day

waking

and rising 

coffee

and reading

walking

and sitting
praying

and listening

and staying

sometimes that...so simple 

gives its pure meaning 

to a life of days

and it makes me wonder

what does my small life

of putting out the laundry

really mean in the grand scheme of things

it's white

and it's beautiful gently swaying in the sun

but anyone could do it

or not

my being

my putting the clothes on the line

has purpose

I was created in the image of God

He put the sun in the sky not I

He brings the flowers and grass from the ground

He causes the sun stars to shine in His light

and He will accomplish what He desires in this...my life

I am His delight

His beloved

His very own child
that He loved into being...